Beach time

I had such an awesome time with Sveta, and a blast when we got home too. I saw ponies and swam, and read her Artemis. We did romantic things like watching the sun rise, and walking on the beach / board walk. I can't believe I'm here, I can't believe I'm with someone, let alone with someone who makes me joyful

Walker is gone

I can't believe it, Sveta told me last that she permanently got rid of Walker because she was afraid of messing up things with us. I can't believe it, I am happy and healthy, and I love her

Relationships, are funny things

Everyone has told me to not stay because it's too hard, but the funny thing is that the harder you work, the stronger the bond, the more you're pushed for a relationship, the deeper it will be.

If I weren't willing to work for my relationship, I would know that I don't deserve the company, and if it was too easy it would be too easily over

I matter

She told me she loved me, I can't believe it, I matter to her :D

Something I love but am not used to lol

Nothing I like more than being told how much I matter to her :)

Personal update

I haven't posted in a while on here, mostly because I've been busy with Sveta, who happens to be the reason I was depressed and needed this outlet in the first place.

I can't believe what's happened since then, I have pursued the a girl, she cares deeply about me, she's smart and wonderful and beautiful, and I feel like the luckiest person in the world. I never thought someone would care about me like this, it's amazing, and she tries to build me up too.

She's withdrawn a little bit I think but I'm not sure. She said she feels more loved than she's ever felt, I don't whether she likes me enough to stay though...

I guess we'll see lol

Safety

It's funny I just told a mother of one of my best friends that their daughter should and could be happy and safe. Now I realize true happiness has risk and isn't safe, and that one cannot be happy with a relationship until that complete safety is exchanged for something which I believe to be more comforting